Over these past several months, I've wanted to:

• Jump with joy

• Jump into Santa Monica Boulevard traffic

• Give up

• Give it my all

• Meet awesome people

• Meet absolutely no one ever again

• Sleep for all eternity

• Never sleep again

• ...and many more contradictory desires/emotions/tendencies/behaviors/etc!

• Also drink. I've wanted to drink a lot. Just so much. God, I had a lot of alcohol. Christ.